It’s been a few short days since I passed day 60 on Protazen. I feel I’ve kind of plateaued on the base formula as nothing has drastically changed since last month. Since I ordered a three month supply I am on my last bottle but during the reorder I picked up some of the serotonin support so we’ll see how that plays into the mix starting day 91.
Moving on. I’ve been working lately. Quite intensively as a matter of fact. I stumbled upon some opportunities to work as a contractor/consultant thanks to a fraternity brother of mine who called me out of the blue. So that’s definitely been a plus since it’s not only expanding my fiscal reach but also restoring confidence in myself. I get pretty anxious from time to time that I’ll make a giant mistake and not having liability insurance, I’d be financially responsible for damages incurred which could run into the tens of thousands of dollars. Otherwise I’m enjoying what I do. It’s what I know and one of the things I’m good at.
I’m still “not all there” in terms of emotional stability. Working by myself gives way for my mind’s railroad to run and I ruminate on many different things throughout the day. Sometimes I dream. Sometimes I worry. Sometimes I laugh or smile to myself because of a good memory. Little things I keep to myself are sometimes the biggest highlights of my day.